I may be down and gloomy at times.
I may be sad, caged and depressed.
I may be swallowed in pain.
I may be pessimistic and dreary.
I may even be cold, distant and withdrawn.
But....
I am also happy and loved.
I am free and whimsical.
I can see things and feel things to the ump-teeth degree!
I am complete.
And.....
Though I contradict myself many times,
I am always within my thoughts, and there I am true.
I am sad and happy
I am caged yet free
I am cold, distant and withdrawn, but also loved for who I am.
I am swallowed in pain, depressed and dreary, but also complete.
So......
I would not trade one emotion over another, because they all help to form the person I am.
They all give me perspective and allow me to gain insight.
Emotions whether good or bad helped me see all sides of humanity.
Therefore.......
I just want to say I am blessed and happy for the way my life is turning out.!
I wouldn’t adjust it in any way NOT ONE BIT...
That been said I would go back in time and give myself some lotto numbers, you know, for a little bump.. Haha.. Jk..
All in all fortune in “my life” is being fulfilled emotionally and humbly. Not materialistically or financially.

My words have been lost for so long, the search has become mundane and I am but an empty vessel wandering without my voice. When facing my decisions I feel so cemented to the ground unable to ponder new choices. My journey carved out, a single road without a detour.
My achievements are great, but the tugging at my heart leaves me yearning for more..




PS I think this photo is soooo cute!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjCKACdjDU4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThPzjROY_jg

If I could live 200+ years, I'd love to master all sorts of musical instruments, its the most peaceful feeling ever, to hear raw talent such as this girl.. Literally brings tears to my eyes, I am in such awe.

I'd love to be that lost immortal soul wandering around with my violin, in search of my forever love...
I love the dramatic side of stories, the deep gut wrenching sadness that pierces into your nerves and leaves you shivering, the story book romance, and unacquainted love (especially in K-dramas). If I could I'd live vicariously in a fantasy world of dreaming.. (but it tends to get frustrating, especially when you start comparing it to the drab of reality, and how boring emotions can be, because so many people are ashamed to really let themselves FEEL) If you know what I mean.. <3 yah!